For the past few months.. I have been unaware of certain things in my life. I always had the thoughts that something was happening behind my back, but always shrugged it off as an imagination. But there something that has happened and it is something big. I never imagined that I would be back-stabbed by someone very close to me.

You know sometimes when I write this blog, it feels I’m writing a script of the MTV hit show ‘Jersey Shore’ (Laugh). I really don’t know there is so much drama in my life. Or maybe God is testing me? I really can’t tell or understand.

I really don’t want to get into the details too publicly, probably i’ll do it later. But whenever we have problems. We rush to our mothers or someone close to us. I never discussed my personal problems or personal problems with dad. Today I felt that I need to get lots of stuff of my shoulders.

I was really amazed how Dad comforted me and told me ‘Don’t worry, your dad is going to fix everything.’ It really made me thinking how important our parents are. They care for us so much, and yet we can’t pay them back for whatever they do. We only hope and pray that one day we become like our parents.

Anyways, I just been having a huge headache all day after finding out the breaking news. I haven’t really eaten anything either, its 5am and Dad understands my feeling and brought my Biryani and told me ‘eat up, aur tension mat lo.. main hoon na”.

I don’t plan on doing any radio shows this week, but I’ll be updating the websites as usual. I am also not sure If how many people come on Facebook during the weekends. I’d love to update Facebook daily, but usually on weekends there is nothing to say or do.  Its like the world freezes.

Anyways, Lots of love to all of you.. Pray for me, and I’ll pray for you.. We shall meet again.

Love, Ali

LISTEN | Arash– “Broken Angel”

By now, I am assuming you all have realize that I only blog when I feel really down and broken inside. Today is that day, when I really feel the neediness of someone.  Someone that left without listening to my story, someone who was my best friend,, someone who would help you cross the river, but when got to the middle that person would let go of my hand and run back.

Its been 2 months today that we haven’t spoken. I literally count each day when we don’t talk..  and all the days that have passed by, I really missed you friend. Okay, maybe I was wrong? But baby I was lonely..  I don’t want to fight and I am tired of being sorry.

The reason I didn’t keep in touch was because I didn’t want to fight. Whenever I try to talk or to fix things, It always backfires.  Maybe its your anger towards me? or maybe its towards someone else.  I always wanted to listen and sit down like an adult and discuss it. However, I never got that chance.. Distance plays a very cruel part in this as well.  I guess things would of  been different today if we had communicated a little more. I really regret that I should of done more, and If I had the chance I go back in time and change it.

Today, I really feel the neediness of you. Your voice, your smile, your comfort and more. As I sit here alone, tears streaming down my eyes. I just want to say that I really miss you. When I wake up each day.  I feel the half of me is already gone. I really don’t know what the future holds, all I know is that you have someone who is waiting for you and will be waiting for you each day till the end, and that someone will always be me.

Today, as I looked at all the relationships around me – some that had gone on forever… some that were reigniting.. and some that had just begun … I realized something. It should have been me.. It should of been me long time ago..

Hey guys,

Its been such a long time. I hope everyone is doing well, I thought that I should get back in touch and continue. Today I’ll be talking about relationships, because I learned something and want to share it.

I know at-least once in our lives we fall in love with someone, and we start off with a girlfriend/boyfriend. Since its the first step of a real relationship we test it out and see how it goes. When we do end it and breakup we learn alot from our mistakes, we also treat girlfriends/boyfriends differently. We tend to keep them away from our families and our personal life at home.

Until we are very serious about the relationship we tell our parents and hope to go to the next stop which is engagement or send a proposal to the girl/boy’s house. Then depending on the parents we tie the knot and the rest is history.

However, I still feel that some of us don’t realize that you have to treat your girlfriend different than a fiance/wife. You have to make her feel like a family member. We tend to avoid that sometimes till marriage because we are scared that our parents might scare her away. Coming from experience, The girl really wants to feel connected with the boys family.

We also should know girls are very possessive, especially in a long distance relationship. She always wants her man by her side. I guess same goes for the boy, he feels the same way. We have to realize that both sides need to compromise because It can’t be a one way affair. Yes, the guys do lay the law down most of the time, but an input of the girl is also important.

I also feel that girls need to realize that your fiance/boyfriend/husband also needs to work and do other things, and I am sure it goes the same way for the girls. But please, you have to forgive the person if they love you. Hanging up on you early, or calling you late are not good things. But girls and guys, you have to forgive especially when your in a committed relationship.

I know guys and girls have walked out because they feel their partner does not care about them. Thats wrong! You have to sit together and discuss your problems and find a solution of how things can be managed.

Always, listen to your parents guys. Especially you DESI ppl out there. Your parents always know best for you. If there are problems, you need to sit down and discuss it with your partner. Never walk away from a relationship just because of that issue.

Lastly, for all those single guys out there. Never ever prey on a girl whose about to get engaged/is engaged/ or is married. Just because a girl or guy is not happy with a relationship doesn’t mean you have to butt in and start talking to that person. I seen it happen and its really sad.

Especially when another guy walks in the picture and convinces the girl to divorce her husband or break up with her boyfriend/fiance for him. Never, ever do that, even if she is the hottest chick you have seen.. I know some girls get attached to those guys because they feel lonely.

But never ever and I repeat ever get into a relationship with that girl whose family has already found his/her bride/groom. Your going to be breaking a family and a home. What If someone does that with your mother or sister? How would you feel? Not happy! that’s for sure..

For you couples out there who get into fights and arguments.. confront the problem, find the solution, and let it go. Never bring up someones past, always look to the future.

Forgive and Forget… May GOD bless you all with wonderful spouses.